Nigezza Creates aka Gez
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My sister came to visit and brought a bit of Christmas with her! My very first Christmas jumper. We went out for some cocktails and went to our favourite place in town. It was very packed and there were no seats, but as we were standing there 2 people got up to go. So we were able to sit. The seats were the exact same ones we sat in on our wedding day. Now if that is not a sign I don't know what is.
My sister sat in the arm chair Ed had sat in. I kept feeling him there. I kept touching the arm of the chair and I found comfort in that as well as some sadness. When my sister went to the loo I sat there and asked James to take a photo. He said I had to smile, I wasn't really aware that I had not been smiling.
Ed made me smile and laugh every day. I am aware that I do not laugh every day now, most days I do smile though. I find a little joy in every day and I type these in my journal. Writing my journal every day is really helping and sharing Christmas memories on my youtube channel is also helping.
I never realised that your heart could physically hurt. Actually physically hurt. Not just an emotion. A tangible pain. Unfortunately pain killers can’t touch this pain. Nothing really can. But a few things do ease it a little.
On my walk earlier this week a little white feather floated down in front of my eyes and I was able to catch it. I now have it safely stored. I can’t tell you how much this lifted me because the pain was quite bad yesterday.
Later on in my walk I saw a black and white bird. Not a magpie, don’t know what it was, Ed would be able to tell me. It made me smile.
I noticed for the first time in my life the sound of the dried leaves scratching the path in the wind. It was a lovely sound that almost spoke to me of love and missing me.
I was able to smile as the sun shone through the trees and the rustle sounds as the wind blew through the branches.
Later when my earbud fell out, something that never happens, I bent to pick it up and I was then able to see a crow just a few feet away on the ground.
I also found the most beautifully formed white feather on the ground. It was dry which was amazing in itself with all the rain we’ve had.
These are the things that help with the pain. The glimmers and the signs.
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Happy Crafting!
Gez xxx
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Gez xxx
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